Dearly beloved, are you listening?

 Its been 6 very long and exhausting days since I've been away from home. I miss my family, my friends, my adorable cats and kittens and  there's a slight chance I might actually miss my teachers(?). Impossible, I know. That's why, i think for the most part, I'm simply running away from reality. It hit me hard when I found myself sharing a dorm with a complete stranger and having to tolerate sharing bathrooms with other people when I've been carefully sitting on double layered toilet rolls whenever I go to public toilets my whole life. Preferably I would go to the squating type of toilet bowls but in some places which only provides the seat type, (hotels and whatnot) that was the case. Call me a freak, but I don't like sharing germs. I would blow up at the sight of seeing my sisters use my towel to wipe their head or even when they'd use my praying veil.

 It's also been hard with my daily routine and meals. I probably know this long ago and maybe it slipped my mind when I came here, but I found myself hating to have a meal alone. Which brought me to starve myself, not to the point of death but I could almost faint from the hunger. I kept going of course, since there was a lecture/lab/tutorial. It's never ending and the roads seem to confuse me. I've been lost countless times and have made many casual acquaintances with the students here, local and international. There's a high chance the first thought they had was "what a bimbo" with the exception that I'm no blonde. Overall, I'm still scared to do much right now. I'm also scared of annoying others by asking for help since all my notes, lab manual and whatnot is still incomplete but what else was I to do? I'm sorry and I thank deeply from the bottom of my heart to those I have disturbed and to those who've helped me either find my way or just simply talking to me.

 "EVERY CLOUD HAS A SILVER LINING"
 The phase suits best in this situation. My silver lining lies on those around my old life. I find texting to most of my friends relieving and it helps me calm down. I feel at home when they encourage me to go forth, stop my worries and cries and become a coffee :) Thank you so much. Especially to you who listened to my whining and crying when I've been treating you badly all these years. True friend, you really are.
Staying here has also made me brave. I have been dreading to call a certain someone and finally I did. I shook with tears as she replied positively to my text. I'm glad we can continue to become what we used to be.